Friends

It's been a long while since I last blogged. I'm just too ill-disciplined to keep up. Or rather just too lazy.
I've just booked my air tickets home few weeks back. A part of me is rather looking forward to it. Seems like a long time since I caught up with friends back home (and msn doesn't count). Another part of me knows that the turn of the year would signifiy the 'official' point of my PhD. The point where I panic. When I realised that I haven't got enough results to write up and that I've only got 1.5 yrs left to go.
Lately, I've started to miss my friends back home as well. It occurred to me that regardless of how big my circle of friends may be, the ones who I'm closest to and know me best are still the ones I grew up with. The ones who worry that about me while I'm abroad, the same ones who have been there for me and listen to my ramblings about life abroad. Its when I need someone to talk to and analyse certain situations that it dawns on me how very much alone life can be abroad. And this is where I'm glad the technologies like msn and FB which makes the world a whole lot smaller. Though I much prefer to pick up the phone or to catch up with them to whinge about my life. Or just a quick coffee which would of course turn into hours of gossips.
I'm missing too the friends who make me see the reality of life. Who pull me back to the ground when I'm sometimes swept away with the flow. Who knows me too well and would list the facts and make me face up to the questions that I sometimes refuse to see.
For all these friends, I'm glad that you have come into my life and stayed in it and make an impact in y life. It just makes my day to know you back home sometimes still miss me and am looking forward to me going home as well. It makes me ponder somedays if I have the courage to uproot my life back home and settle abroad for the rest of my life. I guess thats a decision for another day. Like the saying goes, we will take one step at a time.