The Mercury World

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Stressed.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Been really stressed lately. My list of things to do never seem to end. Everything seems to be a top priority at the moment. Every new working day seems to add new things to the list of top priority. And no, it doesn't mean the old number 1s are being pushed down. It just means more number 1s. So much for prioritising the list. Thereforem it's getting really stressful at work. I wished I was going back next week and not next month.

Had a really crappy past 2 weeks too. I guess that doesn't help matters. This is when I don't think all this hard work is worth it, even for that Dr. title in front of my name. Nor that funky gown and hat you get at the ceremony (if I make it that far that is). This when I think, why do I even bother doing a Phd? Why do I put myself through all this pain and torture? Is there really light at the end of the tunnel?

But then, I do still excited when I get results that I wanted. I still feel the excitement especially when it works the 1st time. I think that's what happens when you get to the point where nothing ever works after repeating it 10 times, and you never expect anything else is ever gonna work. That's when even the simplest of experiment that works give you this thrill. That's when I go; this is why I do science! This is my passion. This is my motivation for doing science (even if the good day happens in about once every 2 months). This is what keeps me going. Till I hit the brick wall again.....