Its all in my destiny

Received some disappointing news yesterday. Finally got my results back. Got a class 2A. Well not that I expected myself to get a first class but I hoped to scrape pass to get it. Its more of the fear of others reaction if I don't. Its the pressure that other pple around me give. Being a Singaporean and a hons student in Microbiology, others always give you the pressure that its where its the easiest to get a class 1. Thats where I aim higher or far too high that what I am capable of. Before I started hons, I never felt it was at all possible to get a class 1. To me it was a impossible feat.
The thing is, I'm not feeling sad. I just feel disappointed thats all. Thinking about it, for someone who have not even achieved a GPA 6 in undergrad, a 80% is a tall order isn't it? At least my parents haven't said anything negative. In fact, mum was quite encouraging. She was more worried that I may have gotten a 2B. Mum felt that with my std of writing it was not very possible to do well. Mum felt it was all destiny.
Well now its time to job hunt. I can at least look forward to working and gaining experience b4 my next step. Just like Allan and Sam. They both have 2A but have gotten good jobs in my lab. So hopefully its not about the class but just the cert? Or is it just wishful thinking? But then, what will be will be! Like what mum said, its all in my destiny.

The mess and the crazy

Our messy bookshelf

This used to be our dining table

Mess created by me while writing up my thesis

Crazy housemate entertaining herself

What will be will be

Finally decided to make the final changes to my thesis. Have been putting it off for ages. Just don't really want to face the mistakes that I have made and see the changes that have to be made. But it still has to be done. Wanna know why? Becos we can get our results back already. And in exchange for the results, we have to submit 2 copies of our corrected thesis for binding. Can't really decide if I'm looking forward or trying to avoid knowing how I went this year.
I finally got asked for an interview after countless of application sent. Its for the position of lab officier in the CMM (Biopolis). I sort of really like the job description. The sad news is ... the interview is for this Thursday. And guess where your truly is? Still stuck in Aussie. Hopefully, the opening will still be there in July or that I get some other interview offers when I get back. Guess what will be will be.

Surfers' Paradise in Gold Coast

Surfers' Paradise

My first breath test

Had my first breath test last nite or rather this morning. Was sending friends to airport at 5am. Being early morning on a sat nite n all the partying that goes on here. The police asked me to breath into the gadget and smart me asked, 'in or out'? After the whole thing was over I was thinking that was such a stupid ques. Of course its out mah. But usually they will ask u to blow into it not breath into it. So its not really my fault is it.
Well, JJ and I have sort of finally decided on our Tassie trip. All we have to do now is wait for JJ to cfm if we can leave on Thurs and off we go. Always a last min thing for us. It seems like everyone is going to Tassie. A total of 4 different gp of pple r going over. And almost everyone miss one another by a day or 2.
It sure if quiet around here these few days with pple going on holidays n all. Suddenly I can picture the quietness when everyone goes home for good except for the few who are staying on. Its a lonely quiet Brissy!

Fraser Island holiday last Nov

Went to Fraser Island last Nov with my friends. A chance to take a break from honours and also when things were not working. The excuse used? It was my birthday. Anyway, thats a sand dune behind us.

Champage pool

Trying to cross to the other side of the bank at Eli Creek.

Up close and personal view of the food

Our first dinner at Fraser Island. A BBQ. It also happened to be my birthday.

Posing on the barge on the way to Fraser Island

Our sleeping quarters .. err.. tents..

A group picture with our 4WD

Its not supposed to be this cold

Oh my! Its not supposed to be this cold in June only. Whats going to happen in July then. *sigh* The effects of global warming.
The car is finally back from the mechanic. Can't believe it. It looks the same as when we first bought it. The things that money can do. Hopefully everything can be settled by Wed, cos we are thinking of going to Tasmania on Thursday. Not that we already planned or bought the tickets. Was actually hoping to go to NZ but the tickets got too expensive.
The thing I hate about watching sports on Aus TV is that regardless of what other good matches is going on, they always have to show the Aussie players. Esp when it comes to tennis. I dont't particularly like the Aussie tennis players. Well at least I can root for the underdog. And I also get to know more tennis players who I have never knew existed.
Watching ER now. Its the one where Carter is leaving. I really like what Lucas just said to Carter:'We only part to meet again'. I think this sentence actually makes a lot of sense. And I can actually relate to this sentence since I'm most probable going to leave a lot of friends behind when I go home next month.

I missed JJ seminar

Can't believe it! I actually missed JJ seminar. I woke up at 9.30 when her seminar is at 10. Also the bus to reach uni in time leaves at 9.35. I didn't want to walk in in the middle of her seminar and distract her either. Anyway heard it went well.
Well its back to a cold cold day after being a little on the warmer side the day b4. It doesn't really help to be wrapped up warmly cos its the wind that causing the problem. Finally bought my UQ sweater after planning on doing it for ages. It was on discount anyway.
Wonder when my car will be back from the mechanic. Our buyer also just told me that she wants to do another RACQ inspection after we are done. She sure is rich.

Graduation pictures from last year

For those that have not seen my grad pics from last yr this is it. I would be graduating again in July though its the same colour hood again.

Another lazy day

Not that I have done much today. Actually nothing at all. Currently watching the Wimbledon match of Henman and his opponent. A very interesting 5 set match. Its always in the Grand Slam that makes me wanna start playing tennis again. I actually know how to play just that I sucked at it plus I haven't touch my racket since 2 yrs back.
Siok Hwee email me to tell me that she also the rejection letter for the same job that I applied for as well. So I guess I am not alone. JJ is having her seminar tomorrow. So good luck to her. Hopefully she will go better than I did. I'm sure she will go alrite since she had so much practice talking in her lab meetings. But then its always the people who are not in your field that ask the hardest questions cos they try to relate your project to what they do. The other people who ask hard questions are the pple who are very expert in the field who knows more than I do.
Well I really should start correcting my thesis. Since I got it back last Wed, I haven't even flipped thru it to see what needs to be done. But then its because the deadline got extended to next Wed and I know I can always choose not to make the major changes that they have pointed out. Like its already marked the correcting is just to make it nicer for perm binding thats all. Guess I really have to stop procrastinating soon. *sigh*

Birthday dinner last Nov

My birthday dinner with my friends in Brissy.

Last Ekka in Brissy

Cowgirl wannabe at Ekka last year.

Me in the lab!

For those who have not seen me in the lab, this is it! Its my bench in my honours lab, though its after my bench work ended thats why its so neat.

Cold cold day

Its getting colder everyday here. N it has also been raining for the past 2 days. Puts you in a sleepy mood man. Or is that my excuse. Well Siok Hwee woke me up this morning to ask me if I wanna go for lunch. So went for lunch, got my canterbury top, Anthony Callea CD (for sis) and came back. So, a fruitful day after hunting for the top for ages.
Sara just told me today that Angie is still jobless and Ann is going to give birth soon. I can't believe it man. That was fast. Well everyone around me seems to be getting married, giving birth and all. Is this the mid 20s life? Was pretty sad to find out that someone who I have known for more than 10 yrs did not even bother to mention she was getting married (shes actually married already) and did not even invite us for her wedding (that tells you how low we gals were in the pecking order of her friends).
I also got a rejection letter for my job application today. 2nd one for Aussie and 3rd one since I started job hunting. Reckon the chances of staying on is getting lower as time goes by. Maybe its time to go home or something.
A little birdie (you know who you are, n you sort of reveal urself on the chatbox) said I need to put pics up soon cos she wants to know more bout my life since she last saw me. Will try my best to put some pics up soon ok?

Not a very long day

I guess from the title that you can tell what kind of I have had. Surprise surprise! I only got up at 5pm today. I was thinking why is the sky so dark (remember that is winter here), looked at the clock which showed 5 o'clock, then looked at my hp which showed the time in 24hr format and was like WHAT 5pm? I was thinking if it was 5am and the sun was rising but then remembered that I slept at 5am so it couldn't be am. Look what thesis writing has done to me! My life is screwed. First I didn't have one, now I have a weird one.
Haven't done much today acutally. Got up watched TV (saw some WWII show in German), The Wedding Singer, Broncos game. Thats bout it. Was looking for an apt to stay when my parents and sis come down for my graduation in July as well. I really liked the ending in The Wedding Singer. I liked the song that Adam Sandler sang to Drew Barrymore. Wish someone would be that romantic to me man. Yeah in lala land I think. Guess I have to get that someone first b4 anything close to that can even happen.
Had another steamboat today for dinner, actually was to finish up the food from yest. And shabu shabu tomorrow with RC and Ben. So another steamboat. I think its the last time the whole gp will hang around together for a meal. RC are going to Sydney in Jul, Ben is goin home on Mon n coming back late Jul, I'm also going home to Sg in Jul. Everyone's just not going to be here anymore, which kinda makes it really sad. The friendships that I have made here. The funny thing is that I only knew RC and Ben in my honours year and we never knew one another thru the whole 3 sems of undergrad that we did and now we are closer to RC than the ones that we knew from undergrad. Isn't it just funny. Guess everything happen for a reason. Though the reason is still unknown to me.

Finally get into the hang of this!

This is my first blog here. I was previously using another site for my blog, but good old Lili convinced me that blogger was a lot more fun. And before I knew it, here I am. Well, it sure is cool on blogger but its also giving me so much headache. Now I know the reason I am a scientist and not a IT person. Reckon my genes translate into a IT idiot. Nevertheless, I finally managed to figure some stuff out. So it looks more or less like a blog now. I still need to meddle around a little though, so Lili or Wx would get pestered by me again soon.
Rite. Since the last time I made an entry what has happened in my life? Lots. I'm finally done with my honours assessment with the viva on Wed. That was nerve wrecking man. I mean 3 examiners sitting there asking you all these questions. Reckon I went alrite though. At least I could answer the questions, though Kato told me that she could tell I was nervous but she said I did a good job. I hope its the truth and she was not just being polite. Anyway, now the class of my honours is fully out of my hands. I just have to make amendments to my thesis and my results are out on the 29th.
Also went to watch Mr & Mrs Smith on Tues. Don't think it was a fantastic show though. Not very impressed with it. Its just 2 big stars thrown together to make this movie. Get action and IT shots (in terms for gun shots and all). Its back to old basics though, good pple never get shot, but the bad ones always die. I mean how can Brad Pitt get a knife spear into his leg but he can still walk around like normal. Just doesn't make sense at all.
Invited Darren, Siok Hwee & Hong Soon to our hse for 'Ma La Huo Guo' tonite. Gald they like it. Now we have so much food left though. We are thinking of asking some other friends for rd2 to finish the food. It was good catching up with them after a few weeks & we were talking till like 2am.
Its getting freezing cold again. Its like 6 degrees out there. Wonder whats wrong with the weather. I hope its not going to be this cold for the rest of the winter. Now I wonder is it going to be worse in Jul. Hope not.

The pple you meet in this wide world!

This was from my previous blog written on: June 14 3:56:00 AM

Ever wonder about the types of pple that you would ever meet in this world? Looking back at my friends over the yrs esp the ones that I have met here it seems like all sorts of pple actually exist. And there are always some that r really weird. I mean not that I actually know them. Some instances are when I'm posting to sell my car and furnitures that I have over here. Pple who tell me to contact them becos they are interested in my car is just not acceptable. There are also pple who have to send me 10 emails just to enquire about a speaker that is worth $5. And asking if the speaker actually works on laptop or just desktop. I mean what kind of questions are these. And I thought I was a technology idiot.
Then there are the pple who post ads up with lots of typos. Dun pple actually proof-read the stuff they write b4 they post it. I mean its gonna be posted on public and pple are going to read it and laugh their ass off. Like me and JJ were looking thru places for her to move to when I go home. There are pple who spell flatmate as flatemate. I mean whats a flatemate? Then theres one that said you can use all the kitchen staff. This one totally got us cracking up. I reckon it was supposed to be stuff. I told JJ, all you ever have to do is just walk into the kitchen and tell them what u wanna have and they would whip it up for you. U never have to cook again in that house. See. N I thought my english was bad.
Ok. I have to get back to the lab book now. N have a bad feeling bout it too. Like I am never going to finish it. N still I'm writing this here now. *sigh* The procrastinator is back. Or did she even ever leave?

Looking back at the past year

This was on my previous blog written on: June 12 3:26:03 AM

Wow! I'm impressed with myself. I actually woke up before noon today. So what have I done today? Not much I reckon. More vcds. Also looked thru my hsemate thesis for her. Its due on Tuesday. See, the point is that often, we look at our thesis so much while we are writing that we reach the point where we are oblivious to the mistakes and inconsistancies that we make. In our eyes, the thesis is as perfect as can be. Thats where another person is needed to look it through for us. As they say the person out of the circle is the one that look looks the clearest (or something like that). This thesis writing is a 50 page pain in the ass (pardon my language). First we go through one intensive, painful, stressful year of experiments, while doing assignments like lit review and review assay (in my case). Worrying about having no results to write up and stuff. Back in our minds is always the thought that do we get our 1st class honours? Then struggle to write up, this 50 page thesis that pretty much decides our fate. The scientific writing is painful (thats when I realized after so many years, my english is really bad), the alignment of the 50 page thing is worse (one move changes the whole document), then theres the printing which causes lots of problem (from the colour of the pictures to sending it for printing which takes 4ever as the document is really big). Not to mention, the seminar that we have to give. Imagine giving a talk in front of so many pple. I hate presentations. I hate Q&A too. Then theres the viva. 3 examiners asking questions on your project. Aka interrogation. Well for me theres just the viva left.
Away from the painful subject of honours. For once, the Brisbane Lions won their footy match while I was watching it on TV. Its the first time they have won 2 matches in a row this season. And hopefully on their way up the ladder. The Broncos also won their match. Finally Brissy teams are doing well this weekend. Now theres the F1 tomorrow.

First entry, first blog!

This msg was from my previous blog: written on June 11 1:01:02 AM

Rite. First blog, first entry. Still wondering why I finally decided to start a blog. Probably due to peer pressure. Now, I am wondering how long I will keep this up.
So what should I be typing here? Since I haven't been doing much since I submitted my thesis, guess theres not much to talk about. Don't I have a boring life? Have just been talking it easy, catching up with everyone that I haven't had the time to chat to over this stressful year, watching VCDs, reading books and all that stuff. Its a good feeling man, to know that you can do the things you wanna do without something nagging at the back of your mind. Actually I do have something to do. Finish writing up my stupid lab book. Thats what!